Not so much me as it is you

So I am feeling better about myself...well I know there are improvements that need to be made however I am working on it.
Anyway...met a girl. We liked each other...things seemed to be going along well. Then...BAM she flips everything upside down and doesn't like me "in that way". She even goes to the point of inviting me to hang out and while that is going on the new guy she is dating picks her up to take her out while I am there. Because I am working on changing my Arizona mindset I did not stab a motherfucker or freak out but acted like I could care less.
Honestly it's better off this way. She is the mother of two and has a cocaine problem...I myself HAD a cocaine problem and kicked it. I do not need her in my life.
So the problem now is what kind of girl do I want in my life?
Obviously someone that appeals to me aesthetically...a sexual being for sure...I am a lover and need a lover.
I want someone that wants me...a girl that cannot get enough of me but is willing to wait until she can and not be annoying about it. I want a woman that can be my friend and companion through the thick and thin. Someone that understands that I am not perfection and understands I realize that about her as well.
I'm a dreamer...I will keep dreaming of a woman like this until I find her or die trying.