I feel off...

I feel weird. Like I am running a fever but I am not hot. Every time I stand to walk I get dizzy and feel like I am seconds from passing out. I hope I feel better tomorrow. In case it is a fever it is time for aspirin and a semi-cold shower.

Yesterday

Does not matter...today is a new day and I am happy my life seems to be heading in the direction I wished to push it toward.
With that...I know I have shared this before but I LIKE it....Mike McGee "Like"

Beautiful thoughts

Hmm

The next girl I date...I hope she has nice legs because I want her to wear a pair of these

and just this to bed with me

I believe I would ravage her and I'm not that big of a sports fan but I have always had a thing for a beautiful woman in just a hockey jersey ...but damn those ribbed thigh highs are hot too...that is all

Plans

It seems I had so many good intentions and plans...but when I arrived they all blew out the window. I need to restart and quit holding on to the person I was.

helpless and small

Today my mother called from Phoenix. She has some neighbors that have been nothing but problems for her for months now. It has been bickering and name calling and police being called. Today on her way up to her own front door she was attacked by the step mom from next door without provocation. My mother who is 66 years old was grabbed from behind by the hair and punched...however she is tough and used to have to fight my horrible father off her. She took this woman by the hair and swung her to the ground and punched her in the face. At this time the womans step son attacked my mother from behind grabbing her by the hair to let his step mother loose. My mother apparently screamed to him to let her go...he did not. My mom punched him in the balls...he let go. She was able to get inside and stop the attack then. However now she has to have papers served on them.

My dilemma...is that I could not be near. I could not protect her. I am so torn up inside right now I am literally crying from my anger. That boy best watch his ass. I will be in Phoenix next month and if he even looks at me funny he's going to be broken and shattered into little pieces. I am a nice and loving man...but don't you ever hurt someone I love. Because inside of me is an over protective demon that wants blood if you do.

But right now...I feel miniscule...I feel tiny and helpless. I realize how large the world is and how little I can do for the woman that gave me life, that sacrificed hers to raise 2 children alone, that loved me and cared for me when no one else would. She is in pain and alone and I can do nothing to help her or avenge the wrong done to her.

It is tearing me apart.

Lo, Der ser jeg min...

Lo, Der ser jeg min Far.
Lo, der ser jeg min mor, mine søstre, mine brødre.
Lo, der ser jeg linjen av mitt folk tilbake til begynnelsen.
Lo, de gjør kall til meg.
De byr meg ta min plass i Åsgard ved Halls of Valhalla.
Hvor ånder av True kan leve evig.

Lo, her ser jeg min sønn.
Lo, her ser jeg min datter, sine døtre og sønner.
Lo, her ser jeg linjen av mitt folk frem til tåke i morgen.
Lo, de gjør kall til meg.
De byr meg ta mitt sted i Midgard i hjertet av vårt folk.
Hvor minnene og brennevin av familien vil leve evig.