They are watching you...

I have holed myself up for the last 3 days, only going out for occasional groceries. I am having some serious anxiety issues and a touch of paranoia...gee thanks Mom. I only say that because my mother is a Paranoid Schizophrenic and has been since I was 11 at the very least. So unfortunately I have had some issues with paranoia throughout my life. Whether it was passed down or because of her daily delusional rantings I do not know. However I do find myself giving me reminders that everything is fine and there is nothing wrong...I am the one being weird. Yay fun...on top of always having some form of clinical depression and now having an eating disorder...well life is grand. So I throw it all here in this anonymous little closet, hiding my skeletons until the day I finally decide upon therapy. Fuck...fuck...fuck.