Damn...how often can I lie to myself and say I am over someone when I am not. I know I need to concentrate my alone time on exercise and art. It is the only way to fill the void she left. I must create and I must rebuild. It is the only distractions that work.
I am thinking of delving in music again. I have been inspired by all the metal I have listened to lately. I miss being on stage and roaring like a Viking over the hordes awaiting slaughter. I miss being the demon above the writhing souls. I was never just a performer...I was something more than that. When the lights turned off and the music began I could feel power flowing through my veins like I have never known. I want that back...perhaps I can make this happen. It's a strange time to do it being so close to 40...but then when will I do it if not now? It was the most peaceful I have ever been. All my anger was unleashed in the music. I want that back.
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